Thursday, April 17, 2008

I Am Balancing, Careful and Steady, and Reveling in Energy That Everyone's Emitting

Things things things.

It's been a little less than a month since my last post, but I must say that I've felt daunted by the sheer length of past entries. It's hard for me to conjure up that writing spirit multiple times per week, as I'm also battling stacks of papers that I *should* be writing. Let's see. An overview:

-- Job in NYC
-- Admitted into the 3-week Sotheby's Institute program on Contemporary Art in NYC
-- Written tons of letters
-- IRON & WINE
-- DOUGLAS GORDON
-- Death of my godfather and one of my dogs
-- AXO Formal
-- Tons of Cleftos performances
-- Break up with Tom
-- 2 Trains
-- Yoga
-- BIRTHDAY
-- Applied for an Andrew Mellon Teaching Fellowship
-- Applied for position as Undersecretary of Public Affairs for the BOV (through SA)
-- Jason Mraz
-- Ani DiFranco: Live In Babeville
-- Honors Thesis
-- ArtForum / The New Yorker
-- Letters of Recommendation
-- Cold, damp, London weather / Spring?
-- KitchenAid Mixer!
-- Too many trips to Williams-Sonoma
-- BAREFOOT CONTESSA
-- The Institution
-- Dan, Joan, GoGo, Jeff, Sam, Lindsey
-- Spiritual Experience
-- Not playing piano / guitar
-- The Wave
-- Eating Out @ tons of new restaurants
-- BEING 21
-- Photography
-- Theory
-- Cindy Sherman, Sherrie Levine
-- My mind won't stop. I can't slow down. I'm speeding up and I'm going to be gone out of this space soon-- am I ready to graduate? Am I beyond the reach of W&M? Do I really have another year? Am I a senior? Have I already left the school? Am I successful? Am I delinquent? Am I kind? Do I have time for people? Do I really exist here?

Yes. Yes. Yes.

OK, so those are the highlights of the past few weeks. I wish I had time to go into every single one. So I will dive in as I continue over this course. We're all pushing to the end, but we're all exploding plastic inevitables.

Although it may seem that it's only kinetic, I have to admit I'm still at a place of fairly unwavering calm. It's not a numbness at all, because some of these major events have really rocked me emotionally; however, I'm balanced, and I feel full of so many different colors of energy. I want to be here right now, and I am, and I love that.